So, time to unload here, I think...
My dad's staying, and I've just fecking unloaded on him. He's gone to bed in tears
So... I've been in therapy for the last six months. I've been meaning to do it for ages, a decade maybe. I thought I had depression, now I'm not so sure. I have a lot of issues anyway
Actually pulling my fecking finger out and doing it was thanks to a few people, including someone here who talks about counselling a bit and completely normalises it. I don't think it's right to tag you but I'm sure you'll know reading this who I mean, and I thank you from the bottom of my soul
It's been overwhelmingly positive, and I'd encourage anyone who thinks they'd benefit from therapy to not be the scared wuss that I was. That said, it's been fucking hard. There's been walls in my brain that I've had to knock down, and some of those have turned out to be fucking dams. I still don't know where I'm going with it but I'm a better person, a better husband and a better dad as a result of the journey so far
Obviously a lot of those issues have been my dad (because I'm a boringly predictable cliche ) and we've just discussed a few... I feel bad, but it needed doing. He's sexist, and he doesn't treat my wife right and I don't like the odd little thing he says to my daughter (he loves her, but makes the odd comment about being ladylike etc, which I hate). That's not it, but that's what bothers me the most
Anyway, we'll see what tomorrow brings. For now I'm sitting up by myself, drinking good whiskey and listening to some truly visceral music. I can't say who, don't want to spoil the surprise for Soapy
That's my unload. I'd been wanting to say it here for a while. I don't expect any sort of response but I do view this place as a real safe space (thanks again to Necro, Trigs, Neo and Tusk, miss you Tusk)
If you're reading this, you're part of a group of good people. You're a good person. I love you guys as much as one can love a group of anonymous online freaks
Read, reread, reread, yeah, go on, post
My dad's staying, and I've just fecking unloaded on him. He's gone to bed in tears
So... I've been in therapy for the last six months. I've been meaning to do it for ages, a decade maybe. I thought I had depression, now I'm not so sure. I have a lot of issues anyway
Actually pulling my fecking finger out and doing it was thanks to a few people, including someone here who talks about counselling a bit and completely normalises it. I don't think it's right to tag you but I'm sure you'll know reading this who I mean, and I thank you from the bottom of my soul
It's been overwhelmingly positive, and I'd encourage anyone who thinks they'd benefit from therapy to not be the scared wuss that I was. That said, it's been fucking hard. There's been walls in my brain that I've had to knock down, and some of those have turned out to be fucking dams. I still don't know where I'm going with it but I'm a better person, a better husband and a better dad as a result of the journey so far
Obviously a lot of those issues have been my dad (because I'm a boringly predictable cliche ) and we've just discussed a few... I feel bad, but it needed doing. He's sexist, and he doesn't treat my wife right and I don't like the odd little thing he says to my daughter (he loves her, but makes the odd comment about being ladylike etc, which I hate). That's not it, but that's what bothers me the most
Anyway, we'll see what tomorrow brings. For now I'm sitting up by myself, drinking good whiskey and listening to some truly visceral music. I can't say who, don't want to spoil the surprise for Soapy
That's my unload. I'd been wanting to say it here for a while. I don't expect any sort of response but I do view this place as a real safe space (thanks again to Necro, Trigs, Neo and Tusk, miss you Tusk)
If you're reading this, you're part of a group of good people. You're a good person. I love you guys as much as one can love a group of anonymous online freaks
Read, reread, reread, yeah, go on, post